Today, in the middle of the recent struggle which I will just call August because really they have no names, I drifted into a family gathering and it was noisy. No surprise there. My uncle—the one who always reminds me that my greatest investment is in myself—was pleading with me to go back to school [...]
Author: darlene anita scott
The Girl Shell
First Love,I just wanted to thank you. I already hear you: for what? Well, I don’t know how to name it exactly, but I can try to explain it.I didn’t believe I was special back then. Not really. Okay maybe. But not special. I wasn’t exactly convinced by you, but you worked at convincing me. [...]
Who Feels It Knows It
"Unless you know, you don't know." RIP Robin Williams _____________________________________________________ someday you will find this. in some box of old syllabi and grammar drills or with some notes for something i planned to write and revise and publish. you will find it and you'll sit down right where you are. you will stop. stop everything [...]
Monthly Meter: July
fellowship/publication submissions: 3 fellowship/publication acceptances: 1 fellowship/publication rejections: 2 books: Blood Colony - Tananarive Due Secret Shame: Jim crack corn and I don't care. Mantra of the Moment: Intention.
Collateral
Collateral 80% civilian. Let that sink in a sec. I don't have the answer to the equation but I think the equation needs to be on the board. Stare at it; the problem may be on your next test and the answer may well cost you your life.
Monthly Meter: June
fellowship/publication submissions: 5 fellowship/publication acceptances: 2 fellowship/publication rejections: 2 books: Black Mamba Boy - Nadifa Mohammed Secret Shame: My b-girl alter ego. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2isZtjIOVRo https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DkoeNLuMbcI Mantra of the Moment: "Graves grow no green that you can use. Remember that green is your color. You are Spring." --Gwendolyn Brooks, "To the Young Who Want to Die"
Monthly Meter: May
fellowship/publication submissions: 3 fellowship/publication acceptances: 0 fellowship/publication rejections: 2 books: Etude - Tiffany Austin How To Read the Air - Dinaw Mengestu Secret Shame: Averageness. Mantra of the Moment: Like there's no tomorrow.
You Are Here
I went to the animal emergency care with my friend a couple of days ago. This is a big deal in my world. Historically, I have been extremely fearful of dogs, hell pretty much all animals. I’m still uneasy around them when they are unleashed or unhandled, but am not the screaming, heart-pounding wild woman [...]
Wherever you are is where you’re supposed to be.
Closing out another semester trying to figure out if this is what I need to be doing with my life, where I need to be doing it, how I need to be doing it. In the the throes of my weekly existential crisis I remembered these tidbits of my career trajectory. I'll tell [...]
Running Giveth and Running Taketh Away (Maybe)
Running gave me confidence I didn't know I lacked. My body changed internally and externally and I surprised myself by achieving things I had considered out of my league and moreover out of my reach. Then I had a disappointing race experience at the end of a phenomenal training season. Which led to more disappointing [...]
