Why, yes, another poem!
This is from a chapbook-on-hard-drive known as Invitations Not To Be Denied. I’ll show it to y’all one of these days, but for now…
MY VIVID IMAGINATION PAINTS YOU, INSTEAD, GREY
Your breath in the morning—sour milk like a baby we knew would never happen but dreamt library cards and the grandparents our parents would be; the knobs of your wrists, handles
for the brushed steel you couldn’t get on or off without me dangling almost feminine wide enough for me to return instead of sell when it fell behind the bathroom door (you didn’t notice).
I had no other way to say goodbye.
Whenever we did, there were your fingers—each taking its own time to release my back, hip, the hem of my top to vices that would transfer whatever seemed right into something better; as forbidden—and the crinkling skin between your eyebrows lines for, maybe of, telling.
Except we erased each story to make room for cheaper metaphors.
I still chase the mutinous curls attempting a clean getaway from your shot at taming,
meandering down your neck from one of the bands I found, later, between the couch cushions; gather your pieces yet the puzzle is no less complicated. We never gave why any credit; the wolf of our longing prickly and insistent sand between our wet toes.
Suddenly I miss you like you’re dead.